Old Stuff: With Someone Else

I remember the circumstances surrounding this song just vaguely, and probably would have forgotten them save for these lyrics. Which is just as well; my songs are a much a part of my narrative as anything else I’ve written. By the way, this one was circa 2001.

Today I heard you were in Toronto, a half an hour away.
Today I spent doing all of nothing. Another wasted day.
Today I pushed you into my memory. It’s so hard to say,
but it must be said.

When I fall in love again, then I’ll forget the way
I gave up all that I was to be with you.

Today I missed you. I cried about you. Tears that should be hid.
I can’t forget the fatal failure that I can never rid.
Tell me someday what went wrong, girl. Tell me what I did.
Oh, it must be said.

When I fall in love again, I pray remember me,
telling yourself to be content. It was good.

Today I think that you might be lonely, but that’s the difference, dear.
You can’t look forward to be, but only because I won’t be here.
And maybe you could try to phone me, but I’ll be gone, I fear.
With someone else. With someone else, and not with you.

And when I fall in love again they’ll tell me it’s too soon,
but it’s not. But it’s not.
And when the sun falls off the sea they say you’ll be my moon,
but you won’t. But you won’t.
And when the note I wrote is wrong they play your stupid tune,
telling me not to forget you.
It’s too late.

And when I come around again I might have forgotten you.
And when I do does it bother you? It bothers me too.
I’m amnesiac. I forgot to say hello.

Today I saw you and now I wonder what I used to see.
Forgive me for the colossal blunder. For ancient history.
For those delusions that you love under. For that grand fallacy.
It must be sad.