This is how the world works.

Do you ever wonder how the world works? I do.

Once, I thought it worked on sheer willpower and a plan: I had many of them. Mix those with a dose of manipulation. I remember not long ago sitting down and sorting future threads out in my head; if I do this, what happens as opposed to doing that or that other thing. Then second and third order consequences. Scarily, I was so often right. Life shouldn’t be that simple, and situations that easy to manipulate.

It isn’t, of course. It’s wheels within wheels. And I am all too human in ways not obvious at the time: I can’t for instance, rely on myself to carry out my plans as I chart them. I also can’t anticipate everything. I screw up even in the most obvious of places. My body can ignore my mind, sometimes even shut it off altogether.

It was - I’ll admit it - a Godless way of working things. Take the ratio of hours spent planning to hours spent praying. What does that tell me now?

Or more to the point, you don’t play God. God plays you. I am not big enough to even know the rules. This is the real endpoint of understanding destiny (not the disengaging you might expect), knowing that I do not know what I cannot know. My perspective is my perspective; God’s is God’s.

Which is how life works. In that sense, life is God, the world is God. Call that fantasy as you wish and push forward with your mastery of the gears. You will never understand the mechanism because you’re no more than another cog.

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Posted August 20th, 2006 in main. Tagged: .

2 comments:

  1. Tim:

    ain’t that the truth.
    It would be impossible to realize all the infinite ways that we affect the world around us without even realizing it…. quantum theory coming in again.

    August 20th, 2006 at 12:35 pm
  2. Captain Grefshem:

    You could allways ask a palm reader, I find them combined with the alignment of the stars to be the most accurate telling of the future.

    In fact, yesterday they both told me that I would make a million dollars if I invested in [ lucrative stock ].

    I also found out that my mothers mothers mother is the reason why I don’t make money easily - because she willed it so..

    Apparently the aliens see me and are pleased with me, which is why I have been given a handsome face.

    And I didn’t take the trip to germany today because the stars weren’t quite visable last night.

    August 22nd, 2006 at 6:22 pm

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